Moments of true peace are few and far between; fleeting instants that
flicker in and out of our lives. Some experience more peaceful times
than others; a lucky few may even claim to have lived a whole life of peaceable
tranquility, but their perspective is limited. Until you find yourself
in the midst of total chaos, you can never understand or appreciate
I have experienced chaos. I have experienced innumerable hardships, a
multitude of heartache, a myriad of losses, and infinite failures. I have felt
pain of the sharpest intensity, and I have cried enough tears to fill rivers. I
have stared into the blackest abyss and faltered.
I have also experienced love. The love of my family, my friends, and of soulmates. Love, pure and strong; boundless and enduring. I have been filled with joy, and have experienced moments so overwhelmed with euphoria it
could have drowned me.
I seem fated to an existence of extremes. I wonder at times, what it
would be like to live a life of tempered mediocrity. To walk a road
plagued only by soft hills and shallow valleys. I would not have seen the
horrors I have seen. But then, I would have also missed out on the miracles
those horrors have brought about.
All is silent and I can feel everything is in sync. I feel our
connection and I revel in the warm familiarity of it. I have felt this before,
in a time long passed, and I have yearned for it since.
I don't know what the future holds for myself, my family, or those
dearest to my heart. I can only hope the future holds good things for everybody. Understand, life is a mix of good and bad.
And for the sake of fashion blogging, my favorite shade of lipstick is nude. I prefer dramatic eyes and toned down lips. My boots were found at Newport News. The dress is from Target.