Sunday, May 24, 2015

After Every Storm the Sun Will Smile




I've come to the conclusion that we tend to look at the things that aren’t in our control and let those things affect our lives seldom realizing that happiness and inspiration lie in the simple things that we often take for granted.  For me, I've compiled a list made up of those little moments of joy.

Ready? Let’s go.

1. The glorious smell of rain in the air on a stormy day.

2. Receiving unsolicited help in the most unexpected ways.

3. The wistful longings of a heart in love.

4. Hearing expressions of undying love from someone who means something to you.

5. Hearing the soulful sounds of music that speaks to you and goes straight to your heart.

6. Experiencing the beating of your strong, healthy heart, reminding you that you survived, a long, hard sweaty workout.

7. The touch of someone you share a special bond with.

8. The boisterous laughter you experience when you’re having the time of your life with great friends.

9. Getting out of bed in the wee hours to witness the promise of a new day while watching a beautiful sunrise.

10. Witnessing the genius of writers who create bodies of work and in each work they create magic with their words.

11. The excitement in the eyes of your pet when they realize you've come home, because those few hours were an eternity for them.

12. The joy of reconnecting with friends you once thought were long lost.

13. Seeing someone you love succeed in life.

14. A brilliant blue sky.

15. The work of photographers who produce incredible images, art through their sight, that speaks to your soul.

16. Savoring, almost greedily, the creamy, sweet delicious taste of rich chocolate.

17. The wonderful aroma of fresh baked bread filling the entirety of your home.

18. The safe feeling of being enveloped tightly in the arms of your loved one.

19. The freedom of knowing that you can achieve anything in your life if you work hard enough for it.

20. The passion and pride you feel when sharing your wisdom and knowledge with others.

21. The pleasure of feeling the warmth of the sun's rays on your face or the flow of the wind as it tangles through your hair.

22. The blessed feelings of both honor and love that you get when you realize you were able to help someone in less fortunate circumstances.

23. Seeing the beauty of white, white snow glistening in the sun.

24. Experiencing the warmth streaming through your body when drinking hot chocolate on an ice-cold day.

25. The wonderment of exploring and experiencing never before this moment worlds, seeing new places, and living briefly within new cultures.

26. Watching the pitch black night sky fill up with brilliant little dotted stars across its massive infinity; a moon creates a sky that puts both life and the world into perspective.

27. Seeing the innocence in a toddler’s eyes.

28. Experiencing trust with true friends.

29. The awe-inspiring performances of world-class athletes.

30. Listening to the beautiful melodious sounds of musical geniuses.

31. Your growth and evolution as a person throughout the entire course of your life.

32. The aromatic smell of freshly bloomed flowers.

33. The powerful realization that your potential in life is limitless.

34. The accomplished feeling of learning to speak a language that is not native to you.

35. Tuning into the miraculous workings of our bodies, and discovering that our body can achieve things we didn’t realize it to be capable of.

36. The luscious green of freshly grown grass.

37. Falling into the comfort of a warm, cozy bed after a long and hard day.

38. The refreshing feeling of putting on freshly washed clothes.

39. Experiencing the humbling feeling of watching, witnessing, and knowing your family and your friends have your back.

40. The empowering feeling of pulling yourself out of a crisis.

41. Spending an entire day snuggled cozy in your bed with breakfast and a captivating book.

42. The immense joy felt when a small child's eyes light up the moment they see you, and they run to you, jumping into your arms, excited for hugs and showered attention.

43. The first beautiful blossoms of spring after a long, cold harsh winter.

44. The first signs of fall after a brutally hot summer.

45. The breathtaking view out of an airplane’s window.

46. Witnessing the genuine love between two people as they promise to stay together for the rest of their lives.

47. Finally figuring out what you’re truly hungry for in life, and then following that dream.

48. Giving to others without expectations and experiencing their joy.

49. Seeing ordinary people change the course of humanity.

50. Listening to the wealth of wisdom shared by your elders.

51. A cold shower on a brutally hot summer day.

52. The overwhelming feeling of seeing the vastness of the Grand Canyon for the very first time.

53. The graceful and elegant flow of ballet dancers floating across the stage in perfect sync with each other.

54. Falling in love with and accepting yourself, flaws and all.

55. Coming home after having been away for awhile.

56. The realization that life, after all, is immeasurably valuable.

What are your reasons to love and fiercely embrace life?

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Champion the Right to be Yourself; Dare to be Different

What I've Been Writing:

I have been working my way through notebooks, piecing together fragments of stories.  While I make money from the content I write on-line for others, my dream is to write short stories and novels.  I have many outlines siting in random notebooks; I also have dialogue, descriptors, rough drafts, and skeletons of stories waiting to be filled in and placed somewhere.  Unfortunately, everything I have ever written has been placed in multiple notebooks, fragments of stories are spread across numerous pages.  I am trying to determine my mindset when I was outlining each story so that I can determine where each fragment belongs.

What I've Been Reading:

I've been reading my own stories, refreshing my mind, and reintroducing myself to my non-technical writing style.  I've also started pulling books from my library and have been skimming over them.  I am a fan of Nora Roberts, her books are sitting on my desk right now.  I also have open fitness magazines scattered about.  Jewelry reference guides, a dictionary, and a thesaurus, are also haphazardly strewn about.  I am sitting around piles and piles of notebooks, magazines, reference materials, and books.  I'm working on developing niches to write in.  I have extensive experience in fitness, jewelry, and drink mixing.  It makes sense for me to focus my attention on those areas.  I've also contemplated book reviews since reading is a hobby.

What I've Been Watching:

I have been listening to The Big Bang Theory since I don't really find much time to watch television.  I am also watching/listening to re-runs of Friends, Smallville, Law and Order SVU, and music videos.  What others don't understand about my watching habits – the things I watch are for the betterment of my storytelling.  When I'm watching television or videos, I'm looking for things: mannerisms, dialogue, how individuals interact with each other and then I use those visuals to help me describe situations that I'm writing about.  Television for me is not for enjoyment, it's research.

What I've Been Listening To:

What haven't I been listening to?  That is a better question.  I have a radio on at all times.  I am always listening to a mix of something.  Music is my enjoyment.  It is so easy to inject into my day with no interference.

What Have I Challenged Myself To Do:

I've been consistent with my running, with the exception of a few days of rain which pretty much ruined my chances of running outside.  I've started lifting with the free-weights I have here at home.  I do standard crunches.  I've been implementing stretch/yoga breaks to alleviate stress on my back from sitting too much.  This level of fitness is normal for me.  The exercises I am actually doing are tame in comparison to the exercises I've done in the past.  I have always lifted heavy, and for a long time I was seriously considering fitness as a career (I even went to school to study it).  From my twenties to my late thirties, you could find me in the weight room seven days a week, usually working with the boys.  I was never one for excuses, unless I was sick, I could be found in a gym.  So what then is my challenge?  I've been working on handstands every single day, ten sets held for ninety seconds each.  While it is a total body workout, handstands are an intense upper body workout.  My weakest area, fitness wise, is my upper body; I am working to change that.  I need to develop my triceps and biceps.  Handstands have actually done wonders for the stiff back issue I've been plagued with since starting a job that requires me to sit at a computer all day.  I am also forcing myself to do push ups.  We all have that exercise we hate, push ups are my bane.  It hasn't been comfortable, I am sore and swollen, but I still do them.

What I've Been Eating:


While I do have favorite foods, and I can guarantee the majority of what I eat isn't the best for me, I've been really focused on my veggie intake.  I love vegetables, but I don't eat near enough, and that's not good for me.  I still eat all the bad for me foods (hamburgers and french fries, never going to give those up), but I make sure to incorporate good for me foods so that my diet remains balanced.

What I'm Planning:

I am in need of a vacation, therefore I am planning to take a trip in the near future.  It's been awhile since my last trip (November to be exact) and I'm getting anxious.  It's very common for me to get into these moods, and I feel like I just need to go.  I have the travelers bug.  I'm ready to get on a plane and go, but I worry about leaving for an undisclosed amount of time.  I'll be away from the resource I use to make money, and I am building a business that relies on my being present.  I understand that I can take a notebook with me, that I can jot down notes in spare moments; but I have obligations and responsibilities, and I don't want to waste a lot of money going somewhere if it doesn't benefit me.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Once Something is a Passion, the Motivation is There

What does success mean to you?

It's an intriguing question, isn't it?  It's a question I've been thinking a lot about lately.  With everything that I am doing in my daily life; I wonder, when will I feel successful?  It's an intriguing thought because the answer to that question is different from person to person – my idea of success may be totally different from yours, or hers, or his.  For some, success is measured in the amount of money they have.  I've witnessed firsthand how some people who have a large sum of it automatically assume that people who don't have the same amount are unsuccessful.  I've also witnessed firsthand people who have very little, who live a modest life in terms of material things and income, and they still feel successful and happy and find complete enjoyment within their lives.

So then, how do we measure success?  I'm just thinking out loud here, really.  I guess the conclusion I've come to is that there simply is no universal definition for "successful," unless maybe if it reads "content with one's current state of being, lifestyle, and place in the world." Even then, I know people who consider themselves successful, but still seem discontent.  So maybe for them, contentment isn't a requirement.

It's interesting to ask yourself what success means to you.  What factors would come into play that would help you to feel fulfilled and successful?  For me, I think I would need a few things to feel like I had done well for myself in life.

1) I would need to feel financially secure and stable.  This is really really really important to me, and I'm sure many others feel the same.  I don't need an extravagant home, the latest and greatest of anything, a newer car that has more features than I'd ever use, or even a huge bank account, but I do not want to struggle either.  What I want is to earn enough so that I feel secure.  I want to enjoy the money that I make, and make enough so that I don't worry about the bills being paid.  I want to have enough to enjoy random trips, shopping, and going out with friends and my future significant other (because I don't believe I will be single forever).  I want to make enough to provide for my basic needs, and still have enough left over to set aside for a rainy day, as well as an amount that enhances my quality of life.

2) For me the ability to take a trip, travel, and see the world is imperative.  There are things I can live without, but travel is not something I'm willing to give up.  At the very least, I need one major trip per year, to some place I have never been to before.  Personally, I would prefer to take more than a trip a year, even if it's just a weekend getaway to a city that's close by.  I have pretty intense wanderlust that's only getting worse as I get older.  I have a serious desire to jump on planes every few months and just go somewhere.  A life without seeing this incredible planet we live on seems so wrong to me.

3) Meaningful, long lasting, and non-judgmental relationships with the people I love and even admiration of the people closest to me in life.  If my life fell into shambles, I would need to feel the people I love don't think poorly of me.  What would be the point of developing close bonds with those that don't approve of my life's choices and are constantly trying to get me to live by theirs?  I'm going to make mistakes.  Not every choice we make in life is the right one, or even a good one.  I should have the right to make choices that affect my life with very little interference from those who think their actions are in my best interest.  Unless our actions are directly hurting someone in a criminal sense, we should be given the freedom to make our own mistakes and achieve our own success.

4) I need fulfillment through creativity.  In order for me to feel whole and successful, I need an outlet for creative projects.  I need to feel like I made the right decision to leave a secure job to pursue my dreams.  It's not an easy path.  I hope to one day touch people with my work.  I'm at the very beginning in a brand new journey, but I hope to one day be the expert that people come to for advice.  Maybe what I do here will always be writing and possibly photography (I've always wanted to be a photographer), or maybe it won't.  I'm enjoying the beginning, but I'm still intrigued by how this will play out.

There are many other items I could add, but I'll leave the list here for now.  Just know that when (WHEN!) I have all these things at the same time, I'll pat myself on the back and say, "hey lookie here, I done made it in life!" Until that time, I'm content to be happy with what I do have and enjoy the journey while I strive to achieve more.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Everything Starts from a Dot

What did your life teach you yesterday?

In life, timing is everything.  Patience is a virtue.  When you are working toward a goal, you need to align your sight with the process and progress you make, and not let yourself get hung up on the results.  The greatest accomplishments in life are usually the result of a whole lot of patience and never ending practice.  When observing your progress you need to ask yourself: are the things that you are working toward slowly but surely moving you in the right direction?  You need to learn when to act and when to stand still and observe.  If you see no progress after you've taken action then you need to adjust your vision and find the things that will actually get you closer to your goals.  Stay alert for signs that something could potentially go wrong and when opportunities are presented take them.  If you open your mind and free it from doubt and fear; your mind will show you what it is you wish to do and you just may learn how to do it.  In life timing is everything, and everything in time.

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Life is the Flower for Which Love is the Honey


A cold front blew in this afternoon… it was the type of cold that makes the day perfect for hot tea or hot chocolate, for hot bubble baths, and curling up with good books.  If I wasn't busy working on creating passive income streams and freelance work, I might have enjoyed spending the day doing all of the above.  The day was cold, it was windy, it was raining, and there were brilliant rays of sunshine everywhere.  Lately, the weather has been all over the place, and that makes it incredibly hard to plan any outdoor activities.

I have had a weird day today.  It was kind of an emotional day, but not really.  In general, I experience more happy times than sad ones, but sometimes I find myself overwhelmed with sad moments and memories that randomly creep into my thoughts.  In these moments, it is like I am struggling to find my way through a heavy fog, and instead of finding a way through it, I end up lost in it.  When you are caught in a fog of memories, you are feeling them, usually in great detail.  It is not always pleasant reliving a moment, especially when you thought you had locked those moments away in the past.

Usually, when old memories pay me a visit, I let myself entertain them.  I never take them too seriously, but I allow myself to feel them.  I write these thoughts off as an imbalance, because that is exactly what they are.  Sometimes, it is good to just let yourself feel what you need to feel, because memories come up for a reason.  When I am done feeling whatever it is I need to feel; I let those moments go, and I stop dwelling.

As the wind picked up this afternoon (we had some fierce wind), I got this incredible sense that something new and crisp was blowing in, which also meant that something old and stale was blowing out.  I willed that whatever dark cloud was hanging over me would blow out with it, because I am ready for the new.  I am thankful for the seasons, and for the changes in life!  I am grateful that nothing ever stays the same—that we don’t stay the same.  I embrace the seasons, and I never compare whatever is going on in my season to what is going on in someone else’s.  Their seasons change as well.  They have their moments and their memories, and maybe we're just seeing the facade of what they want to portray to the world. 

Thursday, May 7, 2015

If the Path be Beautiful


I am creative and focused.

I wonder, when I am writing, what it would be like to be the characters in the stories I have created.  I wonder what it would be like to live outlandish lives, to go on incredible adventures, to see amazing things, with no concept that I live in a different type of reality because in that moment it would be my reality.  I wonder what it's like to create and feel magic.  I am aware that the pen is magic and so is the imagination, but I wonder about the experience.

I hear in the near distance the low rolling rumble of thunder.  I hear the sound of a low blowing wind, howling incessantly into the vast desert that surrounds me.  I hear the tiny little splash patterings of an inconsistent rain against a clear glass window.

I see sharp brilliant flashes of lightning illuminating the darkened desert in random patches and patterns.

I want what I can't talk about.  To talk about what one wants brings unwanted interference; unwarranted solicitations of advice into situations that are of no business to the outside observer.

That is why I remain creative and focused.

I pretend that I am okay with the way people have behaved toward me.  That it was okay to force me to give up my life's dream because it made them feel better about theirs.

I feel gratitude toward wonderful blessings, because when I fell those blessings caught me.

I touch my keyboard, feeling every word as I create all the worlds inside my imagination and bring them to life on a computer screen.

I worry that I'll have to give up my dream a second time, a third, a fourth...

I cry because certain moments have passed forever, certain memories were never created.  Friendships were never forged.  No connections, no bonds, it's as if certain moments in my life never existed.  I've experienced too much time in limbo with no clear understanding as to what it is/was that I am/was waiting for.  In those moments I have felt neglected, belittled, abused, and forgotten.

I am creative and focused because I need to be.

I understand moments in time, reflections of memories, wishes and dreams, and empty promises.

I say keep the memories that make me smile.  I don't let unhappiness dictate my life.

I dream of many wonderful things.  I keep those dreams inside me where they can't be stolen.  I create in a place that is private.

I try to see all the good around me, the positives to balance the negatives.  I'm not perfect.  Even I have heart-wrenching moments that create unpleasant thoughts.

I hope that the thing I don't speak of happens someday.  Coins in a piggy bank...

Until then, I remain creative and focused.




This weeks weather - heavy cloud coverage.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Love is a Deeper Season Than Reason; My Sweet One




If you really knew me…

You’d know I have hazel eyes.  You'd also know my eyes change colors based on my mood and/or lighting.  My eyes are often mistaken for brown, but if you actually looked at them you'd see a whole lot of green.  When they are green, it's usually a bad sign.  The green dominates when I'm sad or angry.

You’d know I love the rain.  I love the way the air smells when it rains.  I find the sound of rain soothing.  I sleep best when it's raining.

You’d know I’m afraid of scorpions.  I scream bloody murder when I see one.  They give me the heebie-jeebies.  I jump on counter tops and throw things until someone kills it.  I get the creepy crawly feeling, like one is crawling on me, after I've seen one.  It takes awhile for me to get over it.

You’d know I love my cats.  I have two, Mozart and Daisy.  I rescued both, and had no intentions of keeping either.  I knew the moment I named them, I was keeping them.  They are my babies.

On that note, you’d know I talk to my cats, and they come to me by name.  I give them little kitty kisses on their noses and the tops of their heads every day.  I also yell at them when they bring me lizards, and ground them for a week.

You’d know I love positive quotes and Words of Affirmation. The best thing anyone can do for me is say (or better yet, write) something loving, encouraging, uplifting, or nice to me.  Yep.  I love happy positive wise words.  Love ‘em.

You’d know I don't drink coffee, but I do like soda.  Soda is where I get my caffeine fix.  I drink one can a day, usually.  I know it's not good for me, but I just can't stop!

You’d know every year, for one month, I give up all sweets (sodas included).  This is an incredible feat because I am addicted to sweets.  I have a ginormous sweet tooth.

You’d know I hate watching romance movies, especially the over the top lovey-dovey ones.  I refuse to watch them because the pace is too slow.  I get bored easily.  Movies, in general, do not hold my interest.  If I watch them, I need humor and a screen full of explosions.

On that note, you’d know I hated the movie Titanic.  Thirty minutes in, I was rooting for the iceberg.  Sink the ship already... that movie made me want to bang my head against a wall.

You’d know I love to read.  You'd also know I love to write.  I tend to gravitate heaviest toward suspense and mystery.  I love writing fantasy.  I also read and write fan-fiction.

You’d know I listen to music every day.  I can not live without music.  I'm not genre specific.  When it comes to my musical tastes, I'm very open-minded, but a large part of my day is metal and eighties hair bands.  I listen to all things Def Leppard.  Gary Allan is my country man of choice.  I absolutely love Matchbox 20/Rob Thomas.  This is my thinking music.

You’d know I have to sleep with at least one foot outside the covers… sometimes both.  I can not sleep with socks on.  I don't like my feet covered because I get too hot. 

On that note, you’d know when I am in a relationship, and sharing a bed, one of my feet has to touch his while I sleep.  I don't like to feel crowded when I sleep, but I like the security of knowing he's there.

You'd know that when Christmas comes around, I like to go for drives around the neighborhoods and look at the lights.  It reminds me of my childhood.  During the Christmas season my father would take us for long drives.  We'd eat fast food and look at all the different decorations and colorful lights. 

On that note, you’d know my father also used to take us to the overlooks when we lived in Vegas.  We would park and we would watch the lights of the city slowly come to life as the sun went down.  Because of this, I have a love of rainbow colored lights.

You’d know I love the stars.  I can lay out underneath them for hours.  I make wishes on falling stars.  I actively search out planets when I know they are visible to the naked eye.  I have observed both Halley's comet and Comet Hale–Bopp.  I've gotten out of bed at three in the morning to witness the space shuttle's reentry.  Do you remember when the space shuttle landed at White Sands?  I do. 

And… I guess that is it for now.  It was fun to come up with things that only those closest to you would know.  You should try it!  :)